While every other 90s born-and-bred kid played with their Barbie's and Polly Pocket sets (okay, I did have Polly Pocket sets, but I didn't play with them that much, and I only tortured my Barbie's the best I could), you would find me, along with my brother, creating epic battles with our LOTR figures and fighting to the death on - what I think is probably the most enjoyable game I have played - James Bond: Nightfire.
Since I am getting old now (OH GOD, I AM GOING TO BE 18 IN NEARLY A MONTH - TIME TO PANIC), I thought it would be a good chance to reflect on how one particular character in a film has subconsciously had a pretty big impact on me.
According to my mum, after watching The Matrix way-back-when I shouldn't have been watching it (rated 15, remember?) my brother and I, on our way to school, bolted to ever phone box in sight and tried to re-enact the awesomeness we saw the night before. In my eyes, it is near impossible to create the coolness that is The Matrix, and it turns out I was right.
This eight-year old moment (or however old I was at the time) triggered off my endless love affair with The Matrix, but more so one character in particular - Trinity.
From then on, I become quite obsessed with Trinity, I must admit. I probably still am kind of obsessed with her to be fair, but it was pretty bad in my childhood days.
I made quite a few Trinity drawings and collages throughout the years, still have my awesome Trinity figure, and probably worst of all, when my mum and dad went to see Matrix Reloaded and told me Trinity had died, I locked myself in the bathroom and didn't come out until they told me she was saved my Neo. (I didn't lock myself in the bathroom when she did die in the next film, though.)
The Trinity I speak of so highly is not the one of Reloaded and Revolutions - she is the original.
Halfway through the 2nd film, Trinity's character loses her way, and by the 3rd, she is completely dead (metaphorically and in reality). But that doesn't matter to me, because Trinity in the first film is the hero of the story, and was always to the real chosen one to me.
Trinity is so much more than a gun-whipping woman. She is headstrong, reliable, and compassionate. She is the one that takes Neo to his destiny; the one that will take no for an answer when Neo tells her to stay behind when he goes off to save Morpheus from Agent Smith. She'll do anything to protect those that surround her, even if that means risking her own life (which she does for Morpheus in The Matrix and Neo in Reloaded.)
There are so many reasons as to why I love Trinity, and in fear of making this post a little too long - as I have the tendency of doing - I'll not delve into all those other reasons, but instead look at how Trinity has had some kind of affect on my childhood brain.
Though I come from a very liberal and mixed background (I am quarter Mauritian, Trinidadian, Irish and Scottish - I kid you not), the icon that is Trinity helped me believe that you could be just as awesome as the men. This life-lesson - and it really is a life lesson - has followed me up until this point, and has definitely shaped the person I am today.
Since I have had this anti-stereotype thing going from Day 1, thanks to my parents, I never saw Trinity being my childhood heroine as a problem. But for others, this supposedly 'masculine' outlook I had, and still do, seemed to be a problem. When you'd think that everyone would have grown out of the 'What a girl should look like' mentality, in secondary-school, on a near-daily basis, I would have these kinds of questions thrown at me: "Why don't you wear make-up? You'd look so much better with it on," or "Why do you always wear trousers, don't you ever wear something more fitting, like a skirt?" or "Why don't you ever do something with your hair? You'd look better with your hair done-up."
That is why I loved Trinity so much. She didn't bother with all of that lark, and no one cared about what she looked like. She kicked ass, and she did it well.
But just because I didn't wear make-up or skirts in school didn't mean I didn't like them. It was school, and let's be honest, there is no one to impress in a school environment (well, certainly not the school I went to). That's not to say dressing up is just for attracting the opposite, or same, sex. It can be fun, too, and I am not denying that. On the most part, I just can't be bothered. I feel confident without having to make an effort, just as girls, or boys, feel more confident taking time everyday to work on their image.
Looking up to Trinity at that time was the perfect remedy for me whenever I questioned taking the advice of 14 year old girls and losing my precious sleeping time to slave over making myself up every morning. Just as Neo, Morpheus, and the rest of The Matrix crew didn't go the extra mile to look effortlessly cool, neither did Trinity. They just were cool. They oozed it.
Okay, so maybe it is a bit weird to imagine Trinity helping me out in those kind of situations in my younger days, but at the time, she really did. Yes, she may not be real, she was just real enough for me.
I just wish young girls, and boys, had role models like Trinity to look up to now. Even if they may be fictional.
So thank you, The Wachowskis' for creating such an awesome character who I still love to this day, and a character - no matter how old I am - I will always have a special place for.
Keep kicking ass, girl.